I guess i should start from the beginning... I had been seeing my doctor very regular for non stress test to keep stats on babies progress due to Micah's emergency delivery. She sent me to see a specialist for a few extra tests on a Thursday and sent me home. Just a few hours later Dr. Fesenmyer called me herself and said... Mary Beth were going to deliver you day of 37 weeks which is this Monday. I was actually driving to meet a friend, i burst into tears because i didn't really know why or what was going on. I met with Dr. Fesenmyer on Friday to go over everything. That weekend was crazy i had a ton of things to get done but as silly as it was getting my hair colored was at the top of my list. I wanted to also savor every last minute of Micah, little Micah being my only baby.
Sunday night one of my best friends came to the house to stay with Micah so in the morning he could go to school and keep with his routine. I think back and feel so blessed that she was willing to do that. I didn't sleep a wink all night and woke VERY early to head out. I knew exactly what was going to happen this time so i was not only scared but excited. I'll spear you the last photo of my belly but one would have guessed a bigger baby was in there.
This time they had me walk to the operating room, and climb up onto the table. I actually had the same nurse support me through my spinal as when i had Micah. They then helped me lay back. I remember feeling fear run through my body and being so alone. I didn't know what it was like to have a healthy baby come back to my room with me. The nurse reassured me that this time would be very different and my baby would go to recovery with me. My doctor entered the operating room, his name was Dr Hussey, he and Fesenmyer were going to so the c-section together (she actually wasn't there so it was Hussey and another doctor) He came in and said a few words and then took a seat to my left and waited till everyone was ready. My anesthesiologist was at my head talking me through the whole process. (he was my saving grace all three times) They actually start cutting before they bring dad in. The sounds and smells in the operating room are one hard to get out of your head. Then, after a lot of pressure on your chest you hear the greatest sound. When i heard Josiah cry for the first time i too cried. It was pure joy. They bundled him up and brought him over to me. I was able to kiss him and tell him how much i loved him. Within a few minutes baby and dad were gone and i was once again alone.
After they finished up i was brought to recovery. This time was very different because i was able to be with my baby. I just remembering him screaming... a lot of screaming. They had me up and walking that evening, which was crazy. I highly recommend binding if you have a c-section it helps with support greatly, a nurse after i had Micah did it for me the first time.
Later that day, My sister arrived as did Micah. Micah was actually very excited to meet his brother. My sister and good girlfriend Karyn spent a lot of time with me in the hospital over the next few days. I really don't know what i would have done without them. And like i said finally on the last day Josiah was Josiah and not just baby Satvedi.
Going from one to two was actually very easy for me. It also helped that the weather was nice and we were able to spend time outside. My sister Katelyn also moved in later that month so i had someone to help me out.
First Visit from big brother
Ready to head home... he was so tiny
He looked like a sweet little old man
Just over a month
First Birthday
Second Birthday
Third Birthday
Fourth Birthday
Josiah you are such am amazing boy. I feel blessed to have you as my own. I can't always tell what you're thinking but i know if its quiet i should probably go check on you. You're the most affectionate boy i know and i wouldn't change a thing about you. I Love You!
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