Noah's 3

3 years ago this very evening is a night that changed my life.  Well, lets start a few days earlier.  It all started Christmas night when i came down with the stomach bug. (9 months prego and throwing up don't mix well) I was 37 weeks and visiting my ob and neonatal specialist every other day.  On the morning of the 27th i went in to see the specialist and was put in a room for my non stress test (i only had over 30 of them) the nurse would come in to check in on me every once in awhile and started to ask if i was feeling anything.  I said yes off and on.  She said, i don't know how much longer this baby is going to hang in there.  I had never experienced labor before so i thought well i better get ready. (I still hadn't packed a bag or prepared i figured this was my 3rd i had this)  After my appointment i went to the grocery store just to be prepared, in case this was it.  My scheduled c-section wasn't until 30th.
I went home and as the day went on i thought this may really be it.  I was hesitant to say i was in labor because i didn't want to be wrong and get sent home (everyone would think shouldn't she know this is her 3rd.)  That evening i was bathing the boys all the while having contractions that were getting stronger and closer together.  I finally decided that i would call the hospital, they wanted me to come in.  I went into Katies room (It was her 20th birthday) and told her it was time and that i had called Carolyn but that she wasn't answering.  I put the boys to bed kissing Josiah one last time before he became a big brother and snuggled my big big boy Micah.  Upon my arrival at the hospital they confirmed that i was in labor and that they would be doing my c-section that evening with just one emergency in front of me.  The contractions became stronger and i was ready to have it all over with.
Not to much longer i was in the operating room waiting to meet my new son.  I remembered the moment i saw him the first time.  I kissed him on the forehead and told him i loved him to the moon and back.  He was taken away to the nursery to be cleaned up and ready for his mama.  This was when my doctor realized that my bladder and uterus were attached and an additional surgery was required.  I'll save you the details but it was awful!
Finally i was reunited with my sweet new baby Noah.  He was so tiny and sweet.  I couldn't stop holding and kissing him.
He was and is such a happy carefree boy.  I love his constant smile, he brings such joy to everyone around him.  His giggle is contagious.
I can't believe hes 3, i really can't believe i don't have a baby anymore.  Where did the time go? I feel so blessed to have three sons.  Some days are so hard and overwhelming and i just want to cry (i sometimes do) or lock myself in a closet but they always ALWAYS find me.  They throw their arms around me and tell me they love me (Jo often tells me I'm the best mommy he could have ever asked for)
On this day and everyday i feel so much joy in my boys and for my sweet Noah's smile.
Mommy Loves you to the moon and Back